Hey pretty people!,
I’m in one of those sentimental moods right now- I’m a night owl and I find that at the oddest hours of the night is when I do my best thinking. I think A LOT, I find it hard to turn my brain off which isn’t always a good thing, especially if I’m trying to wind down. I rarely take time- if ever- to right down my thoughts so I guess that’s what I’m going to attempt to do now…
This isn’t a typical “beauty” post- it’s more just me writing to you guys because whenever I have the slightest spark of inspiration, I try to capture it. Basically, I just wanted to tell you how I’m in the process of learning how not to care. Now, I’m not going to write here and pretend I’m the most perfect, zen person in the world because I’m not even close, but then again, who the hell is? BUT I will say bit by bit, I’m developing a new piece of mind.
The key to creating balance (at least I found with me) is spending time on yourself. If you had to deal with a high- ego jerk who pretends he/she is hot shit (not naming names haha), got a parking ticket (which I totally JUST DID), or lets say, just had a slushy day in general, think this little thought: “These are little bumps and a time will come where all will be forgotten.” Do some yoga, watch awful TV, listen to music that you like, make art (even if it’s “not good”)– As Andy Warhol once voiced,
“Don’t think about making art, just get it done. Let everyone else decide if it’s good or bad, whether they love it or hate it. While they are deciding, make even more art.”
I don’t know if this will work for everyone, but I know it helps me. (It’s nothing new, I’m not making up brilliant, inspiring phenomenons here haha)
Also, I’m finding that as I get older, I’ve learned to completely leave those who bring negative energy into my life. Surround yourself with positive people who respect you and your interests. People who make you feel good. Gently leave those negative people behind and you will find a soothing breath of awareness that helps you make peace with not only yourself but those around you. Remember: you will always have to interact with jerks- whether at your job or in the Starbucks line, but those people do not have to effect you if you do not let them.
As I wrote before, I’ve been trying this new thing out: not caring! I’m not talking about not caring about my dog or my parking ticket that I can’t let myself forget to pay, but mostly just with the little imperfections in life. I’m one of those people who like control in many areas of my life- I like my house clean, an organized folder with all my assignments done… I like to be early for deadlines… you know the usual. I reflect to the world that I’m a type “B” person but who am I kidding, most of the time I’m not. There’s an importance to being “on top of your shit” of course, don’t get me wrong, but I’m trying to let myself relax a bit. I’m learning not to care what people think of me. Not to care if a million people like my picture on Instagram or if people think I’m ridiculous because I prefer YSL polish and grass-feed beef (which is way better by the way!).
So here’s the deal and my last thought: Worry about being a nice person. That’s it. Love yourself and others, and most importantly, keep on keepin on.
Thanks for reading, ❤