It’s 4 a.m, I’m half asleep and I’m feeling very sentimental. Perfect time to write a random reflection piece, eh? Well, here it goes…
We all dream. We all have a continuous flow of aspiration and ideals we wish to live up to. As a young person in my 20s, I am constantly living in the future, which honestly, makes me quite anxious. From a very early age, I’ve had this feeling that I was destined to do something crazy with my life- something non-traditional, something borderline stupid (like moving to Manhattan with no set plan of action).
I recently watched this old rant Kanye West did on Jimmy Kimmel a few years back, and to my surprise, he had some pretty damn good advice. He said, (really kind of yelled actually), “YOU GOT TO BUILD YOUR OWN DREAMS OR YOU’RE GOING TO SPEND YOUR LIFE BUILDING SOMEONE ELSE’S.”
Isn’t that so true though? My life has really only just started, so I am in no way in the position to declare myself “figured out” but what I can say is, you can not get rid of that dream- whatever it is. You MUST hold on to it!
Too many people wake up when their 50s realizing they have hated their job for that past 25 years. I really do not want to be that person. I’m more or less writing this little post for myself, so I can look back at it in a few years and make sure I’m still pushing myself, and living an inspired, passionate life. I know it will be extremely hard at times, but you can’t knock the hustle. I’m prepared to be incredibly broke, incredibly confused, yet incredibly determined to be somewhat successful in a career that drives my creativity while engaging my personal talents. I am not convinced this is impossible.
As the great F. Scott Fitzgerald once voiced, “I’m not sure what I’ll do, but— well, I want to go places and see people. I want my mind to grow. I want to live where things happen on a big scale.”
In the end, we all just want to be happy. The key to that happiness is in having confidence in yourself to live the life you truly wish to live. If you are not living like this, there is always time for change. This change is incredibly frustrating and scary at times but I find my uneasiness only adds fuel to my aspirations. I’m not writing anything outwardly new here, but really just reinstating this for myself (and whoever reads this).
Though I haven’t even finished College, I am thoroughly excited to enter “the real world.” But for now, it’s time for bed, and time to dream some more.
“I just want to have a completely adventurous, passionate, weird life.”